attempted a visual song for a friend or loop demo.

a friend was describing what he wanted. I came close but it turned out for a simple rpg and not a rts, not intense enough I guess. I discovered I can touch Visual but not do greatly at it. My album is still alive but I'm question if I want to make something truely evil that surpasses Brotha Lynch Hung and Eminems old stuff. I mean I have alot of problems with people and life fucking with me but at the same time it's somewhat my fault because I kept shit going or did the wrong thing to make my ego feel good when if I did the right thing it could have turned out different and less messed up. So do I want to hurt people when some of it's my fault too?